Dear Body,

I want to apologise for how I’ve treated you.

I’m sorry for thinking you’re not good enough.

I’m sorry for starving you.

I’m sorry I let my mind play tricks.

I’m sorry for causing you physical pain. 

I’m sorry I don’t see the beauty other’s see. I’m told you’re beautiful.

I’m sorry for trying to make you something you’re not meant to be.

I’m sorry for constantly critiquing you.

I’m sorry for comparing you.

I’m sorry for not realizing all you’ve done for me over the years because I was too busy hating how you looked.

I’m sorry for not taking care of you, when you have done nothing but take care of me.

I also want to thank you.

Thank you for keeping me with you when I tried leaving.

Thank you for not stopping when you had nothing to keep going.

Thank you for embracing our tattoos. I will get more.

Thank you for being my souls home.

Thank you for being strong for the both of us.

Thank you for taking those two shallow breaths a minute.

Thank you for recovering when I push you past your limits.

Most of all, thank you for loving me when It’s still hard to love you.

I pinky promise to make it up to you someday. I never break a pinky promise.

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Pinkys are small, but the secrets and promises they keep are huge.